Saturday, January 14, 2012

start

its the start of a new year, a new semester, but I feel anything but new. Everything is so familiar, the place, the people, the smell, the feelings, the intonation of my steps on the sidewalk (ooooo feelings)...which is all wonderful, I would not give up my experiences of creating all this familiar, but this is what cabin fever must feel like. Getting stir-crazy. 18 weeks until graduation. I have so much to look forward to this year, and I feel like the things I am really counting down to are not happening until May (my 22nd birthday, graduation, moving to minneapolis) I need to decide if I want to throw myself into this semester and work hard and get involved in lots of things, make lists, stay busy to distract myself. Or enjoy it. Take the time to smell the flowers, relax and soak up my last semester. I guess that breaks down as have an active or passive semester. I have always had incredibly active semesters, but always find time to play my ukulele, laugh with friends, go for walks. I think the conclusion I am coming to is that I need to treat this semester just as I have ever other semester at this school, not drawing attention to everything being "the last" I think I can do that. So, let 2012 commence.